Leaning into Aging
Using collage as an integrative tool of self-discovery. About ten years ago, I noticed increased worry connected to aging. Part of me was not willing to accept that it is a natural cycle in life. That part wanted to engage in actions and protocols that would stop aging. Of course, at the same time, I…
TRAUMA, MUTUALITY, AND TRILLIUM
Many of us have experienced trauma. I would venture to say, all of us have experienced it. We see it in the world every day. It often pains us. As Trillium teachers and mentors, we often are working with others who have been traumatized. How does trauma look, sound, and feel? Here is a Trauma…
Consciousness and Personality with Fax Gilbert

A look at how spiritual awakenings define our identity and the evolving effects these transformations can have on the personality.
Harmony
Regarding “harmony”… in music (as in life) this is never a static thing. Harmony has a vertical and horizontal component, chords and melody, and their combination or synthesis or integration as Song. Without relative tension and transition, musical harmony would not have its inner life and forward momentum. We want to distinguish between harmony as…

Nothing to Redeem
At its source, the holiday season is a celebration of giving and forgiving, an honoring of the heart’s qualities of love, compassion, understanding, connection, appreciation, and light. The season can also energize a keener awareness of life’s sharp edges and amplify feelings of separation, brokenheartedness, alienation, disillusionment, frustration, and darkness. These are not the feelings…
“Being Seen, Being Met, Being Loved”: A Retreat in Perth, Australia — Easter 2023
BEING SEEN, BEING MET, BEING LOVED Soul Companions for Our JourneyThrough Forsaken and Forgiven to Fulfilment Relational Spirituality The world is changing in a distinctive way. Events on the other side of the world now feel much closer. We feel a common bond and intimacy with people’s experiences on remote continents. “Far away” is no…
Consciousness, Witness & Source
NOTE: In this consideration, I am inviting us to tune into the direct transmission of the words ‘witness’, ‘consciousness’ and ‘source’. SUMMARY: ‘Source’ is not another word for ‘consciousness’. It is not simply a word that bypasses the awkwardness and transcendent-centrism of attributing origin and origination to consciousness. Whole being source is revealed through a…
The Heart of Radiant Sacred Love – Talk and Meditation
This talk and guided meditation was shared on November 20, 2021 at the Awakening to the Divine Retreat.
Core Identity Inquiry Meditation with Fax Gilbert

In this meditation you will be led through a simple self-inquiry process toward a deepening recognition of your fundamental nature. A powerful way to connect as the Being that registers and embodies everything else.we are.
Love, Feeling, Adoration, and Our Glowing Sacred Heart – Talk and Meditation on Heart Soul Nature
This talk and guided meditation happened on June 25, 2022 at the Whole Being Soul Evolution Retreat.
Love-Bliss of the Supreme Heart – Video Music Album
These are 10 tracks of my flute compositions and improvisations, played on 7-hole shakuhachis, which are Japanese end-blown bamboo flutes. I recorded these pieces at my home in 2011 through 2012, during an especially grace-filled creative period, when a lot of divine inspiration and Love-Bliss intoxication was happening. Initially, I was going to put out…