You are the living paradox of Primal Feeling Is-ness in physical embodiment. You are a dynamic process as the Consciously Feeling or Feelingly Conscious body-mind (or body-mind-soul complex, to speak more completely). Paradoxically, you are simultaneously both Infinite and All-feeling Consciousness, as well as limited and mortal physical Matter… Conscious Matter. Or said the other…
I am an American born, 46 year-old wholistic dentist of Vietnamese-Chinese ancestry. I survived a traumatic childhood with deep emotional wounds and psychological complexes. Starting in my late teens, I became a driven and obsessed spiritual seeker–checking out everything I could find from A to Z–in my search for the ultimate. After 25 years of…
“Intimate relationship challenges you to the core; that’s why it is one of the most powerful paths to awakening, integration, love, and freedom.” – Hillary and Ted Below is an interview from the book “Dancing in the Fire: Stories of Awakening Within the Heart of Community” by Bob Valine, available through Amazon.com You met before…
An interview by Ted for Issue #3 of Mutuality Matters. What’s the Rot about from your perspective? The willingness to start to face into what you’ve been running from your whole life – because there are no more options. You’ve tried everything you could to keep the pain and irritation away in the hope that…
Note: this essay was written when Trillium Awakening was still Waking Down in Mutuality. For more info on our history go to: https://trilliumawakening.org/history/ In this essay “Down” = “Embodiment” To me, Down is about feeling our connection to life. I’ve always been a very deep feeling person, but in my early years, and because of my particular life…
I feel so VERY SAFE with you, like I am securely held, safely, with love and nurturing, in a large hammock and I can’t fall out. 🙂 –W. Someone like you, who is intimately familiar with broken souls and broken zones, can help me process in my body the traumatic emotions I have repressed and…
Let my joyfully streaming face make me more radiant; let my hidden weeping arise and blossom. How dear you will be to me then, you nights of anguish. Why didn’t I kneel more deeply to accept you, inconsolable sisters, and, surrendering, lose myself in your loosened hair. How we squander our hours of pain. How…
Quiet friend who has come so far, Feel how your breathing makes more space around you. Let your darkness be a bell tower And you the bell. As you ring, What batters you becomes your strength. Move back and forth into the change. What is it like, such intensity of pain? If the drink is…
–by Dory Previn, On My Way to Where i have flown to star-stained heights on bent and battered wings in search of mythical kings mythical kings sure that everything of worth is in the sky and not the earth and i never learned to make my way down down down where the iguanas play i…
I often feel the need to “translate” spiritual teachings so that they will be understood by people who have suffered trauma: “When we rest in the unconditioned mind, we are healed.” The emotional body and the autonomic nervous system might or might not be healed from resting in the unconditioned mind alone. The emotional body…
Our Divinely Human Animal Nature: Healing Trauma through Embodied Awakening and Somatic Experiencing In recent years, it has become increasingly clear that trauma resolution must include the body as an essential part of the healing process. In Somatic Experiencing, a profoundly freeing modality developed by Dr. Peter Levine, trauma is understood to be held in…
The Rot is a core evolutionary process of the cocooning chrysalis. It is a composting of withered fruits. It is the foundation for the integration of the whole person with Consciousness. Decomposed matter yields energy.
I am drawn to the rich simultaneity of personal growth and satisfying service to humanity that involvement in Awakened Mutuality confers. It’s not something I choose; rather, it is the shape of my Being, regardless what I’m doing. So I naturally gravitate and am magnetized toward a group of people who are being, doing, and…
TO BE MET RATHER THAN FIXED By deeply welcoming, meeting, and empowering your whole being, I hope to help catalyze your direct, embodied awakening, and bring healing to your heart. I welcome you to find true intimacy, express your unique gifts, and trust your life. I will do my best to make contact with you…
“Deborah Boyar has become one of the Great Mothers of the Waking Down in Mutuality work and community. Her very presence nurtures, holds, and accepts people wherever they are. When you share your most difficult issues and deepest wounds with her, she is always so deeply touched at the heart that you feel honored and…
The first time I saw a picture of the ruins of Macchu Pichu in Peru I was in my mid 20’s. I knew that I wanted to see it in person some time. It took me nearly 30 years to fulfill that desire. By that time I had started studying Peruvian based Shamanic healing practices….
I think if I could have awakened by just thinking about it and using my mind trying to figure out how to “do” it, I would have woken up 30 years ago. My process clued me into the need to include other paths to lead to a whole being awakening. I needed to listen to…
A collage I made. This one is all about claiming Whole Being Realization. One thing I like about this collage is the background images were taken from photos I took in Ireland. You will see the window of an old Abby we visited on the west coast of Ireland – that place had some great…
Mutuality is important. I hope my students benefit from working with me. If so, then the benefit is mutual. Here are some things that they have taught me. One student in speaking about his awakening said It isn’t about experience and in includes experiences A student from Seattle, in acknowledging transmission of consciousness, said: Water…
What most stands out to me about Cielle’s sittings is their vibrancy and sense of adventure and innovation. I’ve missed very few of her sittings since she first became a teacher and make it a special point not to. Her depth of understanding is coupled with a brilliance of verbal expression that is both…