Purpose

What do I want to do with my life?  What’s my purpose?  Am I missing something? Is there some larger purpose…

Being Becoming

Beyond enjoying the freedom and fullness of existence, do we need to be more?

Consciousness and Personality with Fax Gilbert

A look at how spiritual awakenings define our identity and the evolving effects these transformations can have on the personality.

Core Identity Inquiry Meditation with Fax Gilbert

In this meditation you will be led through a simple self-inquiry process toward a deepening recognition of your fundamental nature.…

Van's Conscious Awareness Guided Exercise, 9/17/15

This audio recording is of an improvised guided exercise (with some explanation) that Van offered his small group one afternoon…

Van's Flute Improvisation, 2019 Teacher Retreat

Van shared this beautiful flute piece at the at the end of the first night of the teacher retreat, Wednesday,…

The Forever Connection

During one of my online sittings I spoke about the fundamental field of consciousness that underlies and supports all of…

What do we mean by consciousness? audio format

Cielle’s video with the title “What do we mean by Consciousness?” is now available in “audio only” format. Click here…

Listen to Van's Talks:

September 18, 2015 – Northeast Deep Dive Retreat: Beholding the Supreme Divine Beloved Dharma Talk July 01, 2015 – Transfiguration…

Listen to Van's Beautiful Flute Playing

Heartful Healing Song Poignant Heart She Calls to Us Love-Bliss of the Heart

Paradox and the Core Wound

A talk from an online sitting, March 2018 One definition of a paradox is that it is something which seems contradictory, unbelievable or absurd but that may be true in

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Daring and Perseverance

A talk from an online sitting, January 2018 Daring and Perseverance is one of the “Four Alchemical Ingredients” described in the Trillium awakening orientation course. The other three are   Transmission,

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Exploration: Consciousness / Absolute

An Exploration: Resting as That, you are Infinity. Consciousness and The Absolute, Atman and Brahman, Anatman and Sunyata. Recognizing The Self that is Consciousness (Atman) Student: What is the formless

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Tantra: A Teaching for Tough Times

No matter what your political bent, most of us can agree that we are going through some tough times. Ideology can’t fix global warming, drought, rising seas, poverty, alienation, isolation,

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Teacher vs Student Responsibilities

Teacher’s responsibilities help students see their own wisdom – be careful to no over-identify with being “the source of wisdom” affirm the student’s own authority, and support the student’s unique

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Guru Dynamics – Good vs Bad

One of the key elements at the heart of “guru dynamics” is that of projection. Psychological projection can be seen as an egoic defense mechanism in which we resist and

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Poem: Now

There will never be any other time than now. Now is more than enough. Now contains the universe and beyond. Now what? Now what matters is loving now. Nowness is

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Awakening Capacities in Holacracy

Check out my article, Awakening Capacities in Holacracy, recently published in the online Enlivening Edge Magazine, an international group dedicated to nourishing the growing ecosystem of Next-Stage (including Teal) organizations.

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Life as a Prayer

We are living through challenging times when problems that seem both monumental and intractable beset us on all sides.  The center of our common life seems to not be holding

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Testimonials & Appreciation

“Margit Bantowsky offers online group experiences for participants pursuing and integrating embodied awakening.  She is a very skilled individual who side-steps the traditional role of teacher/instructor for the more artful

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The core wellness is also endless

One of the concepts I most appreciate in this work is the core paradox (also sometimes known as the core wound/wellness paradox). It describes an aspect of reality clearly and

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