Trillium Awakening Podcast
Symbiotic Intimacy with Steve Boggs
In a deeply embodied awakening, a communion with all things arises that turns out to be a two way street of blessing

Levels of Gratitude with Fax Gilbert

Sensing non-separateness via our connection to the web of life, nature, and the elements with Cielle Backstrom

Your entry point into meditation with Bill Epperly

Attunement to Fundamental Consciousness with Jim Trofatter
This guided meditation is the primary one used in Judith Blackstone’s Realization Process work of which I am a teacher. It is a progressive movement of inhabiting the body from toes to head while experiencing the space of the body as a sense of self. It combines a somatic process with an experience of our…

An experience of spontaneous movement meditation with Bill Epperly
Playing with dropping out of the mind into a dense deeper center from which the impulse to move may spontaneously arise and them embodying that impulse to move as it shows up moment to moment.

Grasp the Means of Your Own Realization with Victor Antillon
Your awakening is your own creation. You approach the divine the best way you can assisted by the people who have gone through that transformation themselves. No one can tell you what to do but your own inner guidance if you are sincere and have the determination to find the truth for yourself…Who Am I?

Descent into Physicality with Jim Trofatter
Based on Judith Blackstone’s realization process of attuning to fundamental consciousness through your body.Our trauma tries to keep us out and push us away from experiencing those parts of our body where trauma is held.Settle in to each aspect of you body and recognize those places where you are dissociated, the parts of our body…

Core Identity Inquiry Meditation with Fax Gilbert
In this meditation you will be led through a simple self-inquiry process toward a deepening recognition of your fundamental nature. A powerful way to connect as the Being that registers and embodies everything else.we are.

Working with Three Aspects of the Brain, Meditation with Bill Epperly
This guided experience works with the three parts of the primate brain to create a pervasive felt sense of wellbeing. The meditation begins with the brain stem, with its focus on safety, then moves to the animal brain, which is focused on resource seeking and culminates with the primate brain, with its focus on connection.

Tantra’s Revolutionary Question

Van’s Conscious Awareness Guided Exercise, 9/17/15
This audio recording is of an improvised guided exercise (with some explanation) that Van offered his small group one afternoon at the Northeast Deep Dive Retreat, to assist one of the students with clarifying Consciousness.

Van’s Flute Improvisation, 2019 Teacher Retreat
Van shared this beautiful flute piece at the at the end of the first night of the teacher retreat, Wednesday, August 14, 2019. Enjoy its transporting beauty.

The Forever Connection
During one of my online sittings I spoke about the fundamental field of consciousness that underlies and supports all of creation. Shortly before that sitting I came across the expression, “The Forever Connection.” I loved it. It opened up new doorways for me to relate to the field of non-change, the web that forever connects…

What do we mean by consciousness? audio format
Cielle’s video with the title “What do we mean by Consciousness?” is now available in “audio only” format. Click here to listen. The page that opens gives you an option to download the audio file.

Listen to Van’s Talks:
September 18, 2015 – Northeast Deep Dive Retreat: Beholding the Supreme Divine Beloved Dharma Talk July 01, 2015 – Transfiguration Retreat sitting: How to Make Awakening/Awakened Life Yummier and Happier–Inherent Divine Love, Bliss, and Radiant Shakti Juice June 06, 2015 – Virtual Presentation: Orientation to the Supreme Heart Meditation and Transmission May 16, 2015 –…

Listen to Van’s Beautiful Flute Playing
Heartful Healing Song Poignant Heart She Calls to Us Love-Bliss of the Heart
