Purpose

What do I want to do with my life?  What’s my purpose?  Am I missing something? Is there some larger purpose…

Being Becoming

Beyond enjoying the freedom and fullness of existence, do we need to be more?

Consciousness and Personality with Fax Gilbert

A look at how spiritual awakenings define our identity and the evolving effects these transformations can have on the personality.

Core Identity Inquiry Meditation with Fax Gilbert

In this meditation you will be led through a simple self-inquiry process toward a deepening recognition of your fundamental nature.…

Van's Conscious Awareness Guided Exercise, 9/17/15

This audio recording is of an improvised guided exercise (with some explanation) that Van offered his small group one afternoon…

Van's Flute Improvisation, 2019 Teacher Retreat

Van shared this beautiful flute piece at the at the end of the first night of the teacher retreat, Wednesday,…

The Forever Connection

During one of my online sittings I spoke about the fundamental field of consciousness that underlies and supports all of…

What do we mean by consciousness? audio format

Cielle’s video with the title “What do we mean by Consciousness?” is now available in “audio only” format. Click here…

Listen to Van's Talks:

September 18, 2015 – Northeast Deep Dive Retreat: Beholding the Supreme Divine Beloved Dharma Talk July 01, 2015 – Transfiguration…

Listen to Van's Beautiful Flute Playing

Heartful Healing Song Poignant Heart She Calls to Us Love-Bliss of the Heart

June 2025 – Trauma Mission to Israel

Trauma Mission to Israel I visited Israel for the first time in June 2025, and was invited to write a blog about my experiences at The Times of Israel. Here is

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Advanced Mutuality Skills 2025

The Advanced Mutuality Skills (AMS) workshop has traditionally been the third of the advanced courses offered by Trillium Awakening for those integrating and deepening in the years after their Whole

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Related practices that Cielle uses

Thanks for finding me. I am Cielle Backstrom, and I am deeply dedicated to supporting individuals on their journey toward awakening to their true and total nature. My path spans

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Consciousness, Witness & Source

NOTE: In this consideration, I am inviting us to tune into the direct transmission of the words ‘witness’, ‘consciousness’ and ‘source’.  SUMMARY: ‘Source’ is not another word for ‘consciousness’. It

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Wake Up My Little One

Wake up My Little One; you were having a bad dream.” “Oh, we were kicked out! They said we have to leave the garden.” “Ahh, Sweetheart, we still have the

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Wake Up My Little One

Wake up My Little One; you were having a bad dream.” “Oh, we were kicked out! They said we have to leave the garden.” “Ahh, Sweetheart, we still have the

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Paradox and the Core Wound

A talk from an online sitting, March 2018 One definition of a paradox is that it is something which seems contradictory, unbelievable or absurd but that may be true in

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Daring and Perseverance

A talk from an online sitting, January 2018 Daring and Perseverance is one of the “Four Alchemical Ingredients” described in the Trillium awakening orientation course. The other three are   Transmission,

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