Purpose

What do I want to do with my life?  What’s my purpose?  Am I missing something? Is there some larger purpose…

Being Becoming

Beyond enjoying the freedom and fullness of existence, do we need to be more?

Consciousness and Personality with Fax Gilbert

A look at how spiritual awakenings define our identity and the evolving effects these transformations can have on the personality.

Core Identity Inquiry Meditation with Fax Gilbert

In this meditation you will be led through a simple self-inquiry process toward a deepening recognition of your fundamental nature.…

Van's Conscious Awareness Guided Exercise, 9/17/15

This audio recording is of an improvised guided exercise (with some explanation) that Van offered his small group one afternoon…

Van's Flute Improvisation, 2019 Teacher Retreat

Van shared this beautiful flute piece at the at the end of the first night of the teacher retreat, Wednesday,…

The Forever Connection

During one of my online sittings I spoke about the fundamental field of consciousness that underlies and supports all of…

What do we mean by consciousness? audio format

Cielle’s video with the title “What do we mean by Consciousness?” is now available in “audio only” format. Click here…

Listen to Van's Talks:

September 18, 2015 – Northeast Deep Dive Retreat: Beholding the Supreme Divine Beloved Dharma Talk July 01, 2015 – Transfiguration…

Listen to Van's Beautiful Flute Playing

Heartful Healing Song Poignant Heart She Calls to Us Love-Bliss of the Heart

Flower in a Storm

I tremble like a flower in a storm. The strong winds push me — this way and that — but around my roots the solid ground sustains me and tomorrow

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Appreciative Comments

[I love working with people interested and engaged in their whole Being awakening and their continuing unfoldment and integration. It is a sacred heartfelt connection for me and an honor

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Resources

Written, audio, and video materials from Rod: http://www.awakeninginwholeness.com/resources/

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Writings to Share

Pele’s Way (written after my husband Tony’s death) The volcano erupts suddenly without warning. Its fiery energy sweeps over the landscape of my life, reducing my world to ashes. No

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Divine Mutuality

The realization of our paradoxical human/ divine existence, which in Trillium we call “second birth”, is just the beginning of our spiritual exploration–a foundation upon which to really explore our

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Mini-Autobiography ~ May 2015

Van Nguyen was the most senior (chronologically) Senior Teacher of the Waking Down process, and is now the most senior Trillium Awakening Senior Teacher. He was born in San Francisco

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My Story

I am an American born, 46 year-old wholistic dentist of Vietnamese-Chinese ancestry. I survived a traumatic childhood with deep emotional wounds and psychological complexes. Starting in my late teens, I

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Testimonials

I feel so VERY SAFE with you, like I am securely held, safely, with love and nurturing, in a large hammock and I can’t fall out. 🙂 –W. Someone like

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Beloved Quotes

Let my joyfully streaming face make me more radiant; let my hidden weeping arise and blossom. How dear you will be to me then, you nights of anguish. Why didn’t

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Quiet Friend

Quiet friend who has come so far, Feel how your breathing makes more space around you. Let your darkness be a bell tower And you the bell. As you ring,

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Mythical Kings and Iguanas

–by Dory Previn, On My Way to Where i have flown to star-stained heights on bent and battered wings in search of mythical kings mythical kings sure that everything of

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The Rot

The Rot is a core evolutionary process of the cocooning chrysalis. It is a composting of withered fruits. It is the foundation for the integration of the whole person with

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The Nature of my Work

TO BE MET RATHER THAN FIXED By deeply welcoming, meeting, and empowering your whole being, I hope to help catalyze your direct, embodied awakening, and bring healing to your heart.

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Saniel’s Introduction to Deborah

“Deborah Boyar has become one of the Great Mothers of the Waking Down in Mutuality work and community. Her very presence nurtures, holds, and accepts people wherever they are. When

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Peru

The first time I saw a picture of the ruins of Macchu Pichu in Peru I was in my mid 20’s. I knew that I wanted to see it in

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My students have taught me

Mutuality is important. I hope my students benefit from working with me. If so, then the benefit is mutual. Here are some things that they have taught me. One student

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Appreciations

  What most stands out to me about Cielle’s sittings is their vibrancy and sense of adventure and innovation. I’ve missed very few of her sittings since she first became

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Inquiry Statements

Throughout my journey of shifts and awakenings, inquiry statements have been helpful. Before awakening to the reality of my conscious nature, I would sometimes pause in the middle of activity

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