In this video series, Steve delves into the unexpected and sometimes challenging changes that accompany the later stages of Trillium’s process of embodiment and Whole Being Realization and explains how the process eventually leads to the fulfillment of your unique purpose in this life.
In this video introduction from a sitting by the same name, Fax explores how the Trillium work creates
contexts for connection that deepen our universal, personal, and interpersonal identity.
The Amrita Factor of Radiant Whole Being Part 1 – Introduction
The Amrita Factor of Radiant Whole Being Part 2 – Dharma Talk
The Amrita Factor of Radiant Whole Being Part 3 – Guided Meditation
Divine Love Bliss aids the Embodiment Process – Excerpt from the “The Amrita Factor”
Van’s Theory of Existence – Excerpt from the “The Amrita Factor”
Unraveling of fixing and seeking strategies is one of the first phases we are likely to encounter on our path of whole being awakening. This includes the realization that your previous strategies to either 1) fix, control, or figure out or 2) escape or transcend – pull away from your fundamental feeling of “I’m not okay” are no longer effective and that we need to let go of them.
We discover that moving forward with the needed letting go can bring us to a passage that can feel disorienting, unstable, very unraveled. During this time of unraveling, we often have to trust the teaching.
In this video I speak about this phase of unraveling that leads to awakening.
These are 10 tracks of my flute compositions and improvisations, played on 7-hole shakuhachis, which are Japanese end-blown bamboo flutes. I recorded these pieces at my home in 2011 through 2012, during an especially grace-filled creative period, when a lot of divine inspiration and Love-Bliss intoxication was happening. Initially, I was going to put out a CD of my music, but it didn’t get fully completed, and then, besides sharing it with friends and acquaintances, the recording sat on the shelf for years.
Finally, in early Spring of 2020, I got the inspiration to combine my lovely flower photographs (taken with my iPhone) with my recorded shakuhachi music. I enlisted Drew Martinez to do the video art editing, and he very sensitively and artistically wove the two elements together into a new creation. I believe that the combination ends up a very beautiful audiovisual tapestry of flute music and photographic art.
I am very happy to be able to finally share this with you. I am hoping that this video art creation will provide deep sublime moments of beauty, inspiration, healing, peace, Heart-blessings, Heart-Love and Bliss, and Grace.
Regarding the title, “Supreme Heart” is a poetic term for all-inclusive Source, or Source of All. Infinite Love-Bliss is a primary aspect of all-inclusive Source. Paradoxically, Source of All is simultaneously both transcendent and manifested as us, the physical world, and the cosmos.
For more information about my music and teachings visit my website at
Love-Bliss – Full Video Album
Love-Bliss – Individual Tracks Playlist
00:00:00 – Deborah and Van greeting
00:03:50 – Intro and overview
00:10:00 – Second birth/Whole Being Realization
00:12:00 – Grace on the path
00:15:00 – Psychedelic drugs as an opening factor
00:22:00 – Looking to get “high” without psychoactive drugs
00:30:00 – Spiritual banquet – discovering dharmic paths & holy people
00:35:00 – Introduction to Adi Da’s teachings
00:42:00 – Van’s “Rot” period
00:01:00 – Family trauma issues
00:02:00 – Therapy
00:12:00 – Hearing about Saniel Bonder’s awakening from a friend
00:13:00 – First sitting with Saniel and awakening story
00:16:00 – Witnessing thoughts – Embodied Feeling Witness Consciousness
00:17:00 – Readiness from being in “the Rot”
00:19:00 – Blaze of Consciousness and radiant Divine Love of initial Whole Being Realization
00:20:30 – Experiencing centerless, uncaused love
00:21:00 – Whole Being Realization
00:22:00 – Fused into the world and seamless unity experience
00:25:00 – Post-awakened life and evolution into teaching
00:27:00 – Discovering further maturation of Whole Being Realization
00:29:00 – The value of exploring, experimenting, and improvising in teaching
00:30:00 – Apprenticing with Saniel
00:34:00 – Saniel advises Van to start teaching
00:35:00 – Van’s first sitting as a teacher
00:38:00 – The importance of both structure and improvisation in teaching
00:01:00 – Uniqueness of each person’s awakening & discovering gradual awakening, aka “Oozing in”
00:02:00 – Adapting the teachings for each person’s needs
00:04:00 – Van’s experience with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
00:06:00 – Whole Being Realization is not a fixed state – bodily experience of it fluctuates
00:09:30 – Stable access to the Core Paradox
00:10:30 – Deepening in unity
00:11:30 – Recognition that there is only singular Radiant Divine Being
00:13:00 – The Amrita Factor – the experience of radiant Love-bliss and “divine intoxication”
00:15:00 – The shift in identity from human to divine
00:17:00 – Everything and everyone is a divine manifestation
00:18:30 – Meeting David Spero
00:19:00 – Love-bliss intensification and spiritual deepening with David Spero 00:21:00 – Devotion and the Divine Feminine
00:23:00 – Bliss in Waking Down
00:25:00 – Three aspects of Divine Whole Being – Consciousness, Shakti, & Love-bliss
00:26:00 – Expanding Trillium’s core dharma/teachings
00:31:00 – Integrating Love-bliss into Trillium & the Divine Feminine
00:39:00 – Realization of all-inclusive divinity in later stages of awakening (Note: Van has coined the term “ultra-singularity” as a key element of the later stages, after this interview.)